I'm Joshua Bill Pascoe and I've been involved in the acting profession since I was 10 years old.
During that time I have been lucky enough to have been involved with Walt Disney, CBBC, BBC and numerous private production companies. And I mean lucky - you see no matter how much other people praise your ability there are many more youngsters as good as yourself out there. Any initial success you have means that you were in the right place at the right time or you caught the eye of a director or casting agent who could see potential in you. It is after that that your acting skills take over.
I played a sneaky little kid in a series which was based in a school where the children got together during their break, it was called "Break Kids". Boy was I nervous, I was the youngest in a cast of eight but, as I have found out during my short career, most people in the business are very kind and you soon become a part of the gang. As you also learn, nothing lasts forever and after a couple of seasons the Americans decided not to carry on and it became a fond memory.
I was asked to play another school boy in a really well written half hour comedy called "Life in the Underpass". In this I was a bit of a fantasist who kept telling everyone that he was David Attenborough's son. It took a month to film but what an education! I met people there that I would meet again in EastEnders.
After countless auditions and workshops I gradually fought my way through to an audition for Ben Mitchell in EastEnders. Eventually I got the role and a while later the casting director told me it came down to the fact that I could switch my moods in an instant. What did I say about luck?
I was in EastEnders for two years and what a time I had, so much support from actors like Steve McFadden and Adam Woodyatt. I had so many strong storylines and I had to develop the character into a really sick person. In one scene after my character had killed one of the "Heather" (played by Cheryl Ferguson) I had to show real remorse and really break down and cry. The director kept pushing for more and more emotion. In the end when he got what he wanted; I was exhausted but it paid off in the final showing. That was typical of the professionalism and dedication of the directors and actors. The crew and assistant directors made you feel part of the team.
It was a sad day when I left. Everyone wished me well and said some very nice things. But as I said before, nothing is forever.
A few months ago I spent two weeks filming an episode of "Not Going Out" with Lee Mack. It was filled with laughter - how the series got made is a miracle! I played a gang leader (that's a joke in itself), who mugged Lee but got his comeuppance through his Grandmother who kept hitting him around the head with her bag (and yes she did not hold back so the look on my face was only partly acting!) I could work with that team any time. The show was filmed on location and in front of an audience.
I was asked to play a part in a sitcom pilot in the Manchester studios which again was totally alien to me. This time I was playing a younger person. The good thing about these things is that you meet lots of different people and what amazes me is that when you sit down for a meal or a quiet drink with any of them they treat you as an equal. We are still waiting to see if there is any follow up on that one.
In between these gigs an actor will go to many auditions and inevitably get rejected, and the word rejected is how you feel at first but you have to get over that and remember the more auditions you attend the more experience you get and therefore your chances of winning a role increase. Shortly I'm going for an audition for a feature film.
When an actor is trying to make a name for himself there is a lot of down time so I try and make as much use of it as possible. I've booked courses on dialects, screen writing and other associated subjects; like most paths we take in life you will never stop learning.
There is a meeting place in the West End for actors, writers, directors and other occupations in the entertainment business called the actors centre. I've been asked to assist with a few courses there this summer.
The acting profession can be sole destroying at times but when you're working and trying to get into a character's soul, it is the most exhilarating feeling imaginable.Follow Joshua on Twitter.